About Me

everything was fine. i was ok with being pissed at the family. idk why it never struck me that things were so bad until i saw an internet tab for the parrot jungle.

its like every memory of me and my family being together flashed at me. the zoo, the beach, the marina, the resturants, the bike trips, the shopping. parrot jungle. it was all there and now its gone.

were all so old now. my brothers gets mad at me all the time, my mom doesnt find me cute and my dads body is getting worst. it scares me so much. what have i become.

i use to hate how my family was so cookie cutter perfect. now i dont understand where the cookie cutter went. in stead were not using cookie cutters and putting the dough down in unshaply circles made by our hand.

i really miss them i want them so bad and the thing is that i see them everyday. we still have certain dinners together and i dont know a thing about them. where is my moms life going. where does she want to be in 10 years. alive?

its like the parrot jungle tab was my moms way of thinking things would work out again and we would go but were not. she didnt even bring up the subject of going.

mom we never fed tarpon like you wanted….id like to now